Wednesday, May 30, 2012

6 weeks, 2 days

And the weekly blood work and ultra sounds continue. Things continue to look good and healthy. Growing and moving forward as they should. I just scheduled an appointment for the end of June to begin seeing a regular on/gyn. I asked my Dr to recommend a Dr because I have trusted him with so much, that I trust a professional recommendation. I will not be returning to my old Gyno because some of his decisions made me annoyed.

I can't wait to tell my friends. It's killing me. And faking drinking is getting annoying.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

first ultra sound

Today we had our first ultra sound. We are about 5 1/2 weeks along. Dr. saw one healthy looking sac. What a good feeling. Secretly I am hoping a second is in hiding and that we will hear it with the heart beat. If not, I am perfectly happy with one that's healthy and growing perfectly. I am still holding my breath until the first trimester is over. It is hard to see certain friends and not tell them. I'm sure they will be annoyed I didn't tell them. But as with any pregnancy you shouldn't tell people before 12 weeks and especially with all the fertility I am afraid to jinx anything, plus it's still a bit surreal. I know it's there but I don't feel sick or tired.

I may be speaking too soon.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Lesson learned.


I have never been one to practice it. I like to control and plan out everything on my timeline. Through all of this infertility we have been going through I began to learn it. The worst part I've come to realize is the 9 day waiting period for the pregnancy test.

I just have to get through to Monday afternoon.

Easier said than done.

Every feeling, every cramp, every anything makes you ask maybe it did take? Or maybe my body is just reacting to the intense amount of hormones, procedures and prodding it has come to endure.

You know you been to the dr office too much when you realize your lady parts have gotten more action from my dr than husband lately.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Stir Crazy

The Doctor recommends that you have 2 weeks of no exercise or exertion, to 'take it easy.'


I can't sit still. I can't relax until everything is in it's place. I love to clean. I love to go on daily walks with the dog. I love Wii Fit. I already feel bloated and that I have gained 5lbs.

This I know is all mental.

I have issues.

Once the implantation happens I am two basically be bed ridden for two days. Old school family members have suggested that I just assume I am bed ridden for at least the first trimester once we do become pregnant. They say to take it easy so as not to disrupt anything.

I don't know how to relax or be lazy. I do know it'll be worth it in the end but it's hard to retrain yourself to slow down. Exercise and long walks are my stress relievers. Hormones and lack of exercise will make for one dangerous Jenna!

Please send all good vibes to my husband, Kevin, in hopes that he makes it through this hormonal, dramatic time :)

Jen plus ten.

No, not really. There are ten J&K embryos sitting in a petri dish but not all will be inserted. We chose to implant two, which gives us an 80% chance of carrying one full term. It's weird to think that your possible future children are marinating in a dish. Hey that's five days less I'll be pregnant! The IVF procedure had no real pain afterward. There was discomfort that day and then just a bloating feeling. Personally I'd rather do the retrieval again opposed to the implantation. You have to go to the implantation with a full bladder. I pee enough as is, I hate having to hold on to a full bladder! Whatever happens this cycle will determine the future of the reaming embryos. My husband and I have decided to donate the leftovers to science. We hope to help others suffering from infertility. We get to watch the implantation. Wired. We will literally see them being placed inside me. I honestly hope that the more I talk about it the less women worry about the infertility process and hopefully gain a real honest perspective on what infertility entails.