Thursday, November 1, 2012

Week 29

Short and sweet: maternity clothes. I don't get why women WANT to wear them. I find regular pants unzipped/unbuttoned with a belly band more comfortable. I don't think it's necessary to go out and buy lots of maternity clothes. Maybe some things but overall most regular
Clothes can be worn or that's been the case with me. The essentials: belly band, leggings, 3-4 pairs if maternity pants, loose tops, cardigans and blouses that aren't maternity. I've purchased 4 long sleeves cotton tops, two tank tops, 3 jeans and 3 short sleeves blouses and have worn maybe three things once. I prefer my regular clothes.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

6 months.

The time has gone by super fast. 6 months already. I am currently going to monthly ultra sounds. At my 4th month ultra sound we found out its a girl. When I went to my OB visit she reported the hospital wanted a follow up at 5 months. When I got to that visit she reported that my OB requested the ultra sound due to seeing a cyst. My Dr failed to mention this. And the fact they saw it in the brain. Thankfully the cyst wasn't there at the last ultra sound. All is good. I do,however, have a low lying placenta. So I will continue attend monthly ultra sounds. If it remains low lying then I will have to have a c section for delivery. And I am currently in placenta rest, no sex. Bummer. At times my back hurts but I really can't complain. I feel the best I ever have being pregnant. We've been feeling her since around 18 weeks. It's getting more and more predominant. Sleeping sucks. I wake up to pee, a lot. I'm still very proud to announce I'm still in regular clothes. Just open and unbuttoned jeans and leggings :)

Friday, August 17, 2012

Baby girl Thomas

We have a healthy growing baby girl. Gods got a funny sense of humor because I never pictured myself a Mother to a daughter. We have a name chosen. Close family and friends will be told, then as it gets closer to January we will tell everyone. She looks perfect.

.....and of course we had to buy just a few things

Monday, August 6, 2012


Our home has been made up of small projects and face lifts. We didn't want to undergo the task of ripping down the wall tile/bathtub. Truth is, we didn't want to spend the $8-10 grand for it. So instead, we embraced the wall tile and tub. We decided to retile the floor, get a new medicine cabinet, new toilet and new sink. This bathroom project was my birthday present :) DIY tile floor. DIY toilet install. We did get help with the sink. DIY new medicine cabinet install. 





Monday, July 16, 2012

14 weeks and a bathroom project.

Fortunately I still feel great! Never got sick, haven't gained any weight really but do pee more than usual. Still in same clothes and no belly to do belly pics. Dr says I'm carrying introvertedly. Next ultra sound: 20 weeks. That's when we will find out the sex. Boy or girl??!!! First sequential screening came back normal. Next one is at the end of July.

We have been working on our downstairs bathroom. We are hiving it a make over. Paint, new toilet, new sink, new floor and new medicine cabinet. The wall tile would have been too much of an undertaking and frankly it doesn't bother us all that much. Waiting on the plumbing to be installed and pics will be posted.

Next project: clean up spare room: fix up hole in floor. New radiator covers. THEN NURSERY!! The baby's room will have a small bathroom in it as well. So ready for that project to start :)

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Front Door Project

So being that I am a forty year old at heart, for my birthday I asked for a front door. My awesome neighbor and Kevin put it in today!! I was glad to
get rid if the old heavy front door but disappointed that the screen door no longer fit with the new door. Boo. Especially considering we JUST bought it in October. Oh well. Craigslist it is. The door project went smoothly. I will spackle nail holes, paint the door and trim (just white) and finally touch up some paint around the trim, and then voila!!!

Monday, June 25, 2012

No symptoms but...

Some food aversions at times which include: meat,cheese and some veggies.

Also, Facebook and Instagram photos of food make me disgusted. I hate seeing what nasty foods people are eating.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


Now that I am officially done with my fertility doctor I have stopped going to weekly appointments. Today would have been the day of those appointments. I go to my new ob/gyn Thursday of next week. I look forward to another ultra sound. I feel so good throughout this early part that I get nervous that something's wrong. My Dr said I should feel lucky and not to worry. There's less than a 2% chance of anything bad happening. (which could occur in any pregnancy) now to wait for my next appt!!

Friday, June 15, 2012

New Roof!!

It's the little ( well this was technically big ) things that I enjoy now a days. I live the new roof! We went for a lighter, energy star rated roof. Our house has no attic, technically it's just the upstairs. By choosing the roof that we did were hoping to help cool the upstairs in whatever little ways as possible. Thank you Janville!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Finally ready to announce it!

We are 8 weeks pregnant!! Today was bitter sweet. It was my last appointment with my fertility Dr. I'm sad to leave him! He said we have less than two percent chance , god forbid, of loosing this pregnancy. Because we have been so closely monitored and watched we are where most people are at 12 weeks but at 8. Does that make sense? Does to us. :) sorry to those that I lied or avoided telling, we were so nervous and didn't want ro jinx anything. Xox

Here's out baby, upside down lol

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

7 weeks,3 days

Today was the 7 week ultra sound. It's growing healthy and strong. We have a feeling it's a boy. This was the first ultra sound Kevin got to attend due to his work schedule. He got emotional hearing and seeing the heart beat. Kevin and I process emotions so differently lol. We are happy things are moving along well. Now to just get to 12 weeks! Time seems to be dragging! I don't know how much longer Kevin can hold it in. He's already told everyone it seems like! While I have taken the stance that it took so long to get to this point that I don't want anything to jinx it.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

6 weeks, 2 days

And the weekly blood work and ultra sounds continue. Things continue to look good and healthy. Growing and moving forward as they should. I just scheduled an appointment for the end of June to begin seeing a regular on/gyn. I asked my Dr to recommend a Dr because I have trusted him with so much, that I trust a professional recommendation. I will not be returning to my old Gyno because some of his decisions made me annoyed.

I can't wait to tell my friends. It's killing me. And faking drinking is getting annoying.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

first ultra sound

Today we had our first ultra sound. We are about 5 1/2 weeks along. Dr. saw one healthy looking sac. What a good feeling. Secretly I am hoping a second is in hiding and that we will hear it with the heart beat. If not, I am perfectly happy with one that's healthy and growing perfectly. I am still holding my breath until the first trimester is over. It is hard to see certain friends and not tell them. I'm sure they will be annoyed I didn't tell them. But as with any pregnancy you shouldn't tell people before 12 weeks and especially with all the fertility I am afraid to jinx anything, plus it's still a bit surreal. I know it's there but I don't feel sick or tired.

I may be speaking too soon.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Lesson learned.


I have never been one to practice it. I like to control and plan out everything on my timeline. Through all of this infertility we have been going through I began to learn it. The worst part I've come to realize is the 9 day waiting period for the pregnancy test.

I just have to get through to Monday afternoon.

Easier said than done.

Every feeling, every cramp, every anything makes you ask maybe it did take? Or maybe my body is just reacting to the intense amount of hormones, procedures and prodding it has come to endure.

You know you been to the dr office too much when you realize your lady parts have gotten more action from my dr than husband lately.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Stir Crazy

The Doctor recommends that you have 2 weeks of no exercise or exertion, to 'take it easy.'


I can't sit still. I can't relax until everything is in it's place. I love to clean. I love to go on daily walks with the dog. I love Wii Fit. I already feel bloated and that I have gained 5lbs.

This I know is all mental.

I have issues.

Once the implantation happens I am two basically be bed ridden for two days. Old school family members have suggested that I just assume I am bed ridden for at least the first trimester once we do become pregnant. They say to take it easy so as not to disrupt anything.

I don't know how to relax or be lazy. I do know it'll be worth it in the end but it's hard to retrain yourself to slow down. Exercise and long walks are my stress relievers. Hormones and lack of exercise will make for one dangerous Jenna!

Please send all good vibes to my husband, Kevin, in hopes that he makes it through this hormonal, dramatic time :)

Jen plus ten.

No, not really. There are ten J&K embryos sitting in a petri dish but not all will be inserted. We chose to implant two, which gives us an 80% chance of carrying one full term. It's weird to think that your possible future children are marinating in a dish. Hey that's five days less I'll be pregnant! The IVF procedure had no real pain afterward. There was discomfort that day and then just a bloating feeling. Personally I'd rather do the retrieval again opposed to the implantation. You have to go to the implantation with a full bladder. I pee enough as is, I hate having to hold on to a full bladder! Whatever happens this cycle will determine the future of the reaming embryos. My husband and I have decided to donate the leftovers to science. We hope to help others suffering from infertility. We get to watch the implantation. Wired. We will literally see them being placed inside me. I honestly hope that the more I talk about it the less women worry about the infertility process and hopefully gain a real honest perspective on what infertility entails.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Master Bedroom Project

The newest project in our home has been our bedroom. When we moved in we had nasty carpet throughout. We were able to rip the downstairs up but the upstairs has been a project in the making. We finally got to tackle our bedroom! Ripping out that carpet felt so good! We tore off all the old trim and baseboard. I honestly don't know why anyone likes carpet! For Christmas we received money and bamboo flooring to help with the bedroom. We decided to go for a dark bamboo flooring. We purchased it and Kev was to put it down. I thought laying the floor would be much easier than it was. 

Kevin has decided to never lay bamboo again. 

We also purchased a new closet door. The old door was a regular sized door. It may for an awkward lay out of the room because you couldn't put any furniture near it so that it can open out. A bi fold door was a perfect solution (and easy to put up!).

The inside of our closet is an awkward one. There are a lot of eves in our upstairs. One of them comes halfway through the closet. To utilize all of the storage in the closet we placed two bars in there and tons of shelving. We hung hooks for ties and belts. The closet holds almost double what it originally did.

My Father in Law made us a new radiator cover. What a difference something so simple makes in a room!

New bedroom door and hardware:

Tall baseboards and new trim make everything seem cleaner.

New 'head board.' 
Cost: less than $20.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

"You have a beautiful uterus and lining."

"You have a beautiful uterus and lining."

Not a compliment you hear everyday.

And tearing up and holding back crying, at the sight of a Father and Daughter at lunch during take your child to work day.

Thanks to the nightly doses of hormones, this is what life has officially become.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Gnawing hormones.

Since I started typing on this blog I have only addressed the 'house.' There are many components to a home, however. After we bought our house a dog followed. Duke quickly became the most important thing to us, aside from home improvements, completion of a Master degree and my husband's continued education.  I assumed that the natural progression would be children soon there after.

Now, to back up a bit.

As a teenager I didn't follow the same natural progression in puberty. A gynecologist placed me on hormones to bring on a menses. Months later it never returned. Again I followed the same regiment of hormones which were followed up by birth control.

Fast forward 10 years-

My husband and I decided to go off birth control March 2011. I began to loose my hair and had to chop off long lusturous locks to help combat the hair loss. Unfortunately, again I had trouble with my menstruation or lack thereof. My gynecologist placed me on rounds of progesterone and clomid. Internal and external ultra sounds. Without realizing what clomid was or its effects, I took as directed. I did several cycles through my primary gyno. All were unsuccessful. He could not tell me why I could not menstruate on my own but convinced me to continue with the medications. Over a conversation with coworkers I was enlightened as to what clomid does to the body. I was more than surprised my Doctor had not explained more, nor did I ask. After speaking with family about my issues in July, more family stories began to come out. My Mother also had the same problems, as did other female members of my family. An Aunt of mine had different infertility issues which were unknown but she recommend acupuncture to help with fertility. By October I was spending each week with my acupuncturist. She began educating me on things I never knew or thought to ask. She was unhappy to hear how my gyno was placing me on hormones without being more thorough. She suggested I move onto a fertility specialist.

I was skeptical at first. For one, I am only 26 and thought maybe over time I would menstruate. I work for a, um, very large organized religion organization. They do not acknowledge certain medical practices that are 'un natural.' After probing my insurance I realized I was in fact covered to meet with a fertility specialist. IVF was the only thing not covered.

The day after Thanksgiving, my husband and I attended our initial meeting with Dr. Gocial at RMA of Philadelphia. Immediately after reviewing my charts and file I was diagnosed hypo/hypo. Hypogonadism/hypothalamusism, google if for the exact definition. But basically I have a hormonal imbalance. (My husband probably could have called that) Dr. Gocial began me with a round of Progesterone and estrogen to bring on menstration. He then placed me on clomid to help with fertility. Unfortunately, the clomid had an adverse affect to my body. It made my lining too thin. That cyclye became a wash. Necxt cycle he would move on to gonadatropins, injectable horomones. (Bravelle)

The first cycle of injectables were free from the Doctor's office. After the rund of injectables followed  internal ultrasounds and blood work. My body did exactly what it needed to. I was then ready for my first IUI. (I prefer getting turkey basted.) The Dr takes a cathadar and injects the semen after they have been thruigh a thorough rinse process. My husband has strong, billions of sperm swimming hard and strong :) After two long and agonizing weeks, I was told my pregnancy test came back negative.

The next cycle began but this time we had to pay out of pocket for the medications since my insurance wouldn't cover them. $1600. Same process, same results.

That's when I began fighting the power. I petitioned human resources at work and won! Our Dr reviewed his thoughts with us. After careful consideration we decided to start the IVF process.

For the third cycle my employer would cover the meds through a special mail order pharmacy. I had to stop acupuncture due to financial reasons and we had to finance the IVF procedure. We are still in the IVF process to date. I am uncomfortable with giving exact dates or times because I don't want people to know them. When people know, the questions often follow. I don't want to have to explain to everyone that we still aren't pregnant. Our parents know every detail and I like it that way. I have gone through a mock run through of an IVF retrieval. During which I asked the Dr if anyone has ever peed on him. (You must go with a full bladder to the surgical center)

My basis for discussing my background or personal issues is to help educate others. Infertility isn't a worng thing. Most people don't discuss it because it makes them feel less for not being able to get pregnant. I feel the opposite, by not being open infertility issues become almost taboo. And it shouldn't be. It affects more people than you'd think. After going through this issue with ny husband we hear more often other stories of infertility. The financial toll that follows with infertility is only one part. The psychological and physical toll are just as great. I categorize myself as a strong woman but infertility is hard. There are parts of infertility that are sad, some that are even funny. But you have to remain in good sprits. That's why I will have no problem discussing the real aspects of what has occurred to me throughout the last year because I would have loved to hear real stories when we realized we have infertility. My best advice is being comfortable with your Dr. We love Dr Gocial, in fact we love RMA of Philadelphia  and their staff. You will get more action from your Dr than your husband some weeks. You will feel moody, crazy, sad, all in intervals or at once! You loose any sense of modesty or insecurity about your woman parts. I have learned to scootch my butt down on the table and spread eagle before my Dr has even asked.

Ultimately, no one knows the feeling of infertility unless you have gone through it. I have the support of a friend and coworker who had her own issues. She was able to walk me throughout the IUI process. Fortunately, for her she was successful after the first IUI. I know the IVF isn't 100% but I feel I would rather take the chance, go through the surgical procedure, the hormones, the every other day Dr appts, than to never have tried at all. Be open. You will hear many shared, similar stories.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Kitchen Face Lift

Kevin and I decided to give the kitchen a face lift! We don 't have the money to buy all new cabinets, floors, etc so we came up with a cute, retro housewife theme. Picking the paint was easy- seafoam green with pink accents. I fell in love with the fake chrome backsplash (and it was cheaper than tile) it's made from a rubber material and easy to maintain. Kevin reports it wasn't so easy to put up. My parents gave me a bunch of tile when we moved in and it worked perfectly for what we wanted. TO update our counter I ordered a facelifting product. When it came in it was glorified sponge paint. Kevin told me I wasn't aloud to sponge paint the counter. Thankfully he was right. And thankfully Kevin is able to build whatever I want with the help of his Dad. They built a new countertop and we tiled it instead. Here are the photos!!! All work was DIY style and may not be precisely perfect but we did it and LOVE IT!

The floor needs a good cleaning but we have just been too tired do it, haha.

Total cost of kitchen face lift: no more than $200.

We are waiting on getting a buffet in which we will paint it to match the cabinets and hide all of the ugly storage stuff!

My Father in law made this new cabinet for me!!! Yay!!!

Next project: Putting down our new bamboo flooring in our bedroom!